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Story time! The Addict Diaries Vol. 3: That time I took my first pill & my life was over.

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**Trigger Warning: The following content contains subject matter & dialog involving drug/substance abuse. 

(Me (left) & my sister circa 2004ish)
When I took it, the strangest thing happened. All my stress, all my anxiety, it all just melted away. Nothing mattered, I didn’t care about anything, it had flipped a switch in my brain I didn’t even know I had. It gave me so much power (or so I thought). It all starts off innocently enough, and the next thing you know it goes from recreationally to a daily need and want, then a necessity just to get through your days. Something dark inside your brain telling you that you have to have it. 
It’s now 2004, I’m a fresh faced 19 year old just living life, working, and having fun with my friends. Life had taken its toll on me a little. I had started regularly taking Xanax and smoking weed on a daily basis. I’d get off work, stop at the dealers house, buy a handful of pills and a bag of weed and go home. I’d be exhausted from working all day, …

Story time! Addict Diaries Vol 2: That time I left home & reality knocked me on my a** .

**Trigger Warning: The following content contains subject matter & dialog involving drug/substance abuse. 
It was 2002 and I was 17 years old, I thought I had life figured out & knew everything. Don’t we all at that age? Oh how the mighty fell.. and fell hard. The real world slapped me in the face harder than I could have ever imagined. I still had a year and a half left of high school until I graduated, and I was in “love”. I loved Tommy* so much, I just knew we were going to get married, have babies, and live happily ever after forever. Of course, me being the reckless child I was, I decided I didn’t want to follow the rules anymore. I was a “grown up” with like a totally real job at a local burger joint. I was such an adult, so why are these adults trying to tell me what to do right? *hair flip* I’m totally 18 now and sooo mature.
So of course I made the stupidest decision of my life, I dropped out of school and moved 40 mins away from my tiny hometown (that I had never left …

Story time! Addict Diaries Vol. 1: That time I was an innocent child before morphing into a monster.

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**Trigger Warning: The following content contains subject matter & dialog involving drug/substance abuse. 
Hey guys! Here is the first draft in my Addict Diaries Series. Thank you for being here, I am grateful for each one of you that finds yourself here reading this (thanks mom! We all know you’re the only one who reads my posts! Haha) As always, spread the love!

(I’m the super cute tiny one in front with the antenna ponytail)
        Becoming a drug addict isn’t anything anyone ever sets out to be. Nobody plans on growing up to be a junkie crashing in an abandoned house, stealing from the people they love, and destroying their lives and bodies. You don’t think that someone randomly offering you a pill during a party could morphe you into a monster that lives and breathes just to get the next pill. You don’t think that your first drink of alcohol is going to trigger something laying deep and dormant in your brain and the next thing you know you’re black out drunk on a daily basis, h…